I some times wonder if we have a point in our lives where we just stop and wonder if we are ok. We hear the words others tell us, we try to process it and take what they say at face value but then when we are alone with our thoughts we hesitate. Are we happy with the way our life is going, are the people that we claim to be friends really such or are we simply afraid to wake up one day to discover we are simply alone. Did we take the right path, did we make the right decisions, did we let the wrong people slip from our lives.

I have alot of time to think about everything when my brain is not wanting to write poetry or stories and my brain wants to replay alot of the past and beat me over the  head with it like some how it will rearrange itself to make my choices make sense. I am still learning to forgive myself for past mistakes, learning to understand others and grateful for the ones that have led me to where I am in my life now. I don't expect anyone to feel this way nor am I trying to push anything on anyone else.  Its just simply me and my thoughts, nothing more